Boiling in California

I know I'm spoiled because I live in California and the weather usually stays under 80 degrees, but when it rises above the 80 mark I become miserable.

I do not own an air conditioner, both of my employers do not own air conditioners and I'm stuck with one crappy fan to keep me cool.  I feel awful for my plants and 3 cats who are stuck in the house.  What blows the most though is how I cannot go anywhere because traffic is backed up for miles to the beach and it effects all the major freeways.

What did I do today; turn on the fan to blow the hot air out, watch South Park, try to go somewhere cool with air conditioning, cleaned my house when I returned, watched more South Park, took a shower, went out for ice cream and lastly I watered my wilting plants.

No wonder the Native Americans moved to the ocean or hills during the summer, it's freakin hot!  I'm sweating while I'm just sitting here writing, I'll be surprised if I haven't lost weight from sweating.

My boyfriend did order a pool, thank god, it's just a little kiddie pool, but it will be nice and cool in our backyard and I don't care if I turn into a prune.

At least my tomatoes are starting to come in and I probably don't have to worry about the watermelon too much if the heat stays up.

Father's Day is going to be a pain in the butt though because it's just so freakin hot, where can we go? The beach is out, the city is going to be packed, anywhere with air conditioning is going to be a nightmare.  I know it will all be fine, but I'm just cranky because of the heat.

I feel like I didn't do anything productive today, but how can you in the heat.  Lions don't even hunt in the day, so I'm going to follow suit and move about at night.

Communication

Last night Angel, Sherman, my fiancé and I wend up Hicks road to watch the falling start. It was perfectly dark as we laid there on a blanket watching the colorful streaks pass through the milky way. We talked, laughed and joked only interrupting with a resounding “ooooooooh” when a star streaked past.

It was so amazing to be somewhere so quiet, where only the wind and crickets fill our ears, it’s rare to have these moments when you live in the city. The energy isn’t as rushed like it is in the city and it has a calming effect. But I think we tried to change it with out constant talking, we just couldn’t enjoy the quiet too long.

It would be nice to go up there alone mainly because it would be easier to enjoy the serene quiet. But there are times where it’s okay to just talk with others and have a good time under the infinite stars. There were no computers, phones, texting, it was authentic communication, where you could hear the voice and face at the same time,

The Pagan community itself seems spread thin and it is sometimes lonely in solidarity practice. I’m lucky to have some friends, but it would be nice to meet other Pagans without the use of the Internet, which is an awesome tool, but impersonal. One time I went to one of my local occult stores and just stared at by the other customers. I felt like I was intruding and it did not encourage me to open up either.

I wouldn’t have minded a small high, but all I felt was negativity. I have at least one good idea behind the Christian community, if you come into their church, you are usually greeted warmly, but with the Pagan community, it seems people are very guarded from each other.

This is one of the reasons why I’ve chosen to be a solitary. I don’t want to deal with drama, but I feel pretty lonely with just my books to keep me company. It just seems like the community is very hidden and skeptical to newbies. But I think it would be good to have some structure and learn from more experienced practitioners even if the coven doesn’t work out, at least you have the knowledge.