Do not define the divine.

How dare you try to define the divine? How do you know? The answer is I don’t, but as long as you follow a good path it doesn’t matter what you call god as long as you believe there is one.

This is the revelation my fiancé and I had tonight after fighting for hours against and for Christianity. I tried to explain how I felt about Christianity and how the book itself is incorrect, even if Jesus was awesome. He called me book dependent and I said that’s another reason why I’m leaving Christianity, there is no book in Wicca and there is no absolutes on the god or goddess which is how it’s supposed to be.

The god and goddess are infinite and thusly the interpretations of them can be infinite, this is why there is an issue with monotheism, it’s not that one god isn’t ok, but you try to fir an infinite being into a small box. So finally Brian sees how both religions can work together, because we are all students in our faiths.

Not Ready to Come Out

My fiance and I are having issues because of this new transition I'm going through. The first words he said to me were, "I can't believe an intelligent person can believe in this. You're crazy." He may have apologized, but he said it and it hurt. Currently I'm having 'Jesus' belief difficulties because if I believe Jesus was the Son of God then I have to believe in the Christian version of God, and I don't. I've decided that Jesus was a real person, with profound knowledge about the divine and was seen as the Messiah by the Jews, but he wasn't, he just said God was his Father, and I think that was from within not literally.

Christians often take ideas too literally or personally at times and forget the common practice of loving your neighbor as yourself. I believe he does love me, but I also want someone to share my journey with me not fight me or keep silent. Recently I have not felt the same about our relationship, I'm unsatisfied and haven't been to lonely without him, maybe it's time for me to move on and find someone I can share with, but not too soon, I need to heal and discover what life is for myself.

I can't help seeing the faults in Christianity and fighting against it all the time. I can't help what I felt and the happiness I'm feeling right now. And I can't deny his rejections to my experience, naming them temptations and his refusal to search and understand what I'm saying. Love is about moving mountains for each other and when one is willing to do so and the other is not, it isn't love it's taking advantage.

I'm changing and will continue to change regardless because time stops for no one.

Blessed Be.